The sight of my hands breaking his heart as I let him walk away almost undid me. Breaking his heart was never in my plans. I never thought we’d be here today, barely more than friends, sharing the same place, but not the same heart. When did the dreams of us become the needs of one? The first feelings of doubt crept in. Was I being incredibly stupid or selfish? This was either the bravest thing I’d ever done or the most cowardly.Would anyone love me as much as Troy had? By letting him go was I giving up my only chance at forever love? What would my life feel like without his calming presence?
As the shadow of my former husband turned the corner out of view, I knew that even though it might be the wrong decision, I wasn’t going to follow him. That I had shut that door, and there was no going back. I was on my own for the first time in 7 years.Left to deal with the fallout I took a breath. I waited for the tears to come, but my eyes stayed dry. I waited for the voice in my head to tell me that I wasn’t strong enough to face life on my own, but was met with silence.
The vibration of my cell phone startled me out of my self-reflection. “Hi Lauren.” I said, as I hailed the yellow cab coming down 5th.Written by Sarah Johnson